I had not blogged in years. Had a mountaintop moment when things were finally coming together and my mental health had really improved and my health has been following, I wanted to hit 2026 head on with all the appointments, putting on my big girl pants. I shared in a recent post celebrating the victories. Little did I expect that a mammogram would show a spot in my left breast and after further testing, I would need a biopsy. So here I sit, my left breast incredibly tender from yesterday's procedure, my mouth sore from an intense dental cleaning, and now a large cut on my face for a skin biopsy from a spot that my dermatologist provider found this morning. It is not easy for my brain to be positive and to focus on all things good and holy, but my mind is asking God why? And my heart hurts thinking of my sweet miracle son that looks at me as if I hung the moon, wanting to mom him until the end of time.
So here I am, documenting that I may be on one of the greatest mountaintops or entering a new valley, trusting that God is already the Author of my story. And I want to focus on that as much as I can, even in the sleepless nights and in the worry. Ironically, I wrote in my planner months ago in planning for this month: "Go to sleep. God is always awake." It is almost as if God was already planting the seeds in my heart.
As much as this year has started as a lemon, I have to remember God is at work. And this year, while it is a total lemon, God is in the business of lemonade.
