This is my life.

 My dear friend Julie said I would get to a place in this new life of mine and I would have this moment, when the realization would set in and I would confidently and thankfully say, this is my life. Smirk smirk. Yeah right, I would get that glorious moment. But February happened. The highest highs and the lowest lows. (Once again, cue the singing angels and their harps--for the good parts, of course).

Nothing special ushered in the moment. But it happened. It hit me gently like a ton of fluffy bunnies. Like soda pop and bubble gum. This is my life. For a split second, I teared up and let all other thoughts escape. This. Is. My. Life. And though I immediately wanted to text my friend Julie to sing from rooftops about the moment that had just occurred, I let it all sink in with, what I am sure, was a silly smile of pure contentment on my face.

The Pee Monster.

As that moment (as well as that weekend) has been engraved in my memory as a treasure, I would say that our lives are far from perfect. We have our flaws and imperfections. And reality makes itself known often and loudly like bullhorns and dragsters. Reality hits in moments like when I dropped the cup of red salsa on the carpet at lunch. Brought partially raw brownies to treat for my colleagues. Having tons of unanswered questions about what is to come. Or after talking smack about another's mishaps, my phone charger starts its own sparking party, burning the charger and the outlet as I drive down the road. Or like when I wake up at 4 in the morning today, in a puddle of Grandma Stella's leaking bladder (for the 10th time). This is my life.

My parade has been peed on many times in the recent weeks. Life is messy. Literally and figuratively. It is a bit chaotic at times. It is unexpected. It is walking at times in blind faith. But somehow, I am always able to get back to the moment of...This is my life. The difference now in contrast from 6 months ago in is how I brace for the storms. And when they hit (as they are inevitable), thank God I have an umbrella and carpet cleaner because you just don't know if it will be a hurricane or a yellow puddle.